Weigh In 29
SW: 262
LW: 254
CW: 252
Woohoo! Look at that. Ten pounds from my highest weight. Definitely a good thing.
To be honest, I’m a bit surprised (surprised enough to step on the scale a couple times) to see a loss. Given I’m on the tail end of TOM plus not moving as much as I should because of cold/cough 2009 (I’m finally going to a doc tonight), I’m just really surprised.
Despite, well, everything, I feel like I’m in a pretty good place right now. I’ve finally figured out that yes, I know what I have to do. Now I just need to address the psychological component for weight loss.
It may sound silly or strange, but I think – on the subconscious level, at least – I am willing myself to stay at my current weight. I definitely don’t want to gain any weight, but there are a lot more strings attached to losing weight than I previously realized.
How do I know? Well, I have been successful with losing weight and getting fit since I started this journey. I want to be healthy and be able to have kids. But I hiccup. I almost religiously fail at a certain point (240 pounds) every single time I get close.
I also know because some of my earliest memories – we’re talking five and six years old – are of me sitting alone at the dinner table after everyone else had finished and stuffing myself until it literally hurt. It’s hard to admit to, even now, but it just goes to show that I need to address those issues – the ones that caused a little girl to think the only solution was to eat as much as possible as often as possible.
There is a long road ahead, but I have a good feeling about it. With ‘all the ducks in a row’ so to say, I can lose, continue to lose, and keep it all off.
So how are you doing?
March 2nd, 2009 at 3:09 am
Yay you! Well done! This time you’re going to push through that 240 lb mark… I’ll be here to help you!
March 2nd, 2009 at 11:55 am
Yay!
I am down a pound this week and I am shocked by it. My eating this last week was TERRIBLE. It was bad. The only thing I did accomplish was to cut down on my soda. I only had a soda a couple times through the whole week I think. But still the eating.
March 3rd, 2009 at 7:04 am
Well done! A good part of this battle is a mind game and YOU are winning it!
March 4th, 2009 at 7:52 pm
Hanlie - Thank you.
Jenera - We all have those weeks. *hugs* One step at a time.
Cammy - Thanks!