Truthfully?
I’ll be honest with you all here because it feels like that’s all I have left to talk about here right now.
Lately I have been frustrated. More than a year (two years in October) of a dramatically better lifestyle including fresh foods, exercise, and diet restrictions have seen me with almost no weight lost. Yes, I have bounced around and lost up to twelve pounds, but it bounces right back. Up, down, up down.
Perhaps if my weight was in the 230s, I wouldn’t be here now mentally. Emotionally. But I’m not. I have been losing and gaining about the same ten pounds for many months now despite the vast improvements I have made to my health, diet and fitness.
I want to cry and complain about the state of it all, but that’s not what this post is about. It’s more just letting you know that I’m tired. And my being tired is probably starting to show through in my posts, if it hasn’t already. For that, I apologize.
I went into this with such high hopes and yet I find myself stuck in a place I never wanted to be: Tired of trying for a healthier lifestyle.
I can’t well and truly quit. Not yet. I still have one more step of having a bunch of blood tests done to see if they can reveal why it’s so hard for me to lose weight. So until that’s done, I’ll keep on.
It’ll just be hard. And I apologize to you now for my enthusiasm not being what it should.
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