Avoidance
A couple weeks ago, the very sweet Cammy from Tippy Toe Diet offered the awesome prize of five chances to win a free PictureYourselfThinner ‘makeover’. Basically, you send a current photo in and they, using their awesome photoshop methods, take the weight off to show you what you’d look like with x amount of pounds gone.
As I mentioned to Cammy when I entered, I have no idea what I’d look like thin. Maybe not no idea – I do look in mirrors – but I don’t have things like old photos showing me thin or anything like that. I’ve been overweight for a long, long time. So, to be able to see myself thin… Well, that would be a first, pretty much.
I happened to be one of the very lucky five winners who got this photo treatment done. After a bit of procrastinating (I’ve been busy – I promise!), I finally had my husband take the photo and I sent it in last night.
Prompt people that they are, the results are back already and I have my very own ‘before and after’ shots without having actually achieved the ‘after’ yet.
I haven’t looked at it yet.
I know, I know. Some of you would be quite gung ho and would open that email in a heartbeat, but I just can’t do it yet.
Why? Part of me is afraid. I mean, I’ll be seeing a side of myself I’ve never seen before. I’m not afraid I’ll look downright ugly or anything, but it’s kind of weird to face up to the ‘skinny chick stuck inside me’.
I won’t wait forever, though. Don’t worry. I do think, however, that I’ll wait until my husband gets home from work.
April 2nd, 2009 at 7:52 am
I’m so glad you received your photo already! They’re swift at PYT!
I think I understand your hesitation to look at the photo, and I suspect I would’ve had the same reaction. It will be there when you’re ready for it.
April 2nd, 2009 at 11:29 am
I’m not sure if I could look at it either. Mainly because I think it would be sad to see what I could look like. Ya know? I’ve never been skinny either. Yes, I was alot thinner but still. That would be tough.
April 5th, 2009 at 6:16 pm
Cammy - Yes they are! I was a bit shocked.
Jenera - It is still weird to look at, yes, but I’ve found it to be quite the motivation. Even if I don’t ’shape up’ exactly as they think I will, I still know now that I can be pretty damn hot.